I'm happy there's always something new in my life and it's never boring. Today i experience a genuine cold shoulder w/o any bit of pretence. The attention given to me was pure obligation. It says to me - I'm not interested in you anymore, goodbye... but because i'm a good person, i will still talk to u. Interestingly, i feel there's nothing i can do about, which is a feeling i rarely get. The typical me will always find some form of solution. Yet I feel everything is not within my control, as if an invisible force has placed all these situations around us...

If I should struggle, to what ends should i struggle towards?

What i been up to.
Been down with sore throat since Sunday nite & took MC on Monday. Spent the whole day drinking water & eating salted starfruit ha. Went back to the office on Tues, and bot herbal tea to help the situation. Met YT for lunch at Ion Food Opera twice this week, and had loads of fruit juices from Fruit Frolic. Non citrus that is. I'm so afraid of getting a cough, but there's no escaping, because I started to develope a cough on Wed night. Fortunately, it's a rather mild one. And then came the potent Bak Kut Teh with plenty of garlic last nite. I ended my Friday with the voice of Zeng Zhi Wei...

Dreams & their interpretations
The whole week has been very hectic at work and i'm super glad it's over. This morning i woke and my first thought was - it's a...... Saturday!! Oh gawd i'm so happy i dont have to go to work. I been having tons of dreams at night though, they're either odd, familiar, or plain new. I dont recall dreaming about bees and mouse before, so i did a check to understand their 'interpretations' haha.

From Dreammoods.com-
Mouse
To see a mouse in your dream, indicates fear, meekness, insignificance and a lack of assertiveness. You are experiencing feelings of inadequacy and fears that you are not measuring up. The dream may also be telling you that you are spending too much time hiding in the shadows. Alternatively, it may symbolize minor irritations and annoyances. The dream may also be a pun on a computer mouse and your connection to work or to the virtual world.

Bees
To see bees in your dream, symbolizes wealth, good luck, harmony, and bliss. Bees are also symbolic of hard work and industry as represented by the common phrase "busy as a bee." Alternatively, the dream could indicate all that is happening in your life or something that is buzzing with activity. Is there a lot going on in your life?

Yes... Like, Totally. (with an American accent)

Friends and their other half.
Lately i feel quite conflicted abt friends and their other half. Typically I'm not the kind who will hide or pretend, but for friendship sake, i will still try my very best to accept... no matter how negative i think of their partner. We're all entitled to our own opinion, yet i'm fully aware it's unfair to let my views have any adverse effect on my friends' love lives. Afterall, the role of a friend is to provide support, and nothing more.

It's amazing how short tempered i am, and what sort of matters get on my nerves. It's incredible. Perhaps deep down i'm really over-sensitive. Otherwise, it's simply cos these matters hit my weakest points, at the worst moments. And all i do is, snap. I wish i know another way out.

PMS.
Once in a while i feel the urge to burst into tears w/o reason, or for the slightest cause if at all. It's silly yet a part of me is hanging somewhere like a distant longing, for the ppl whom i have not heard from for a long time. I'm incomplete not because my life is not good enough, but because it is made up of many facets. As small as the missing pieces may be, i'm not immuned to it and will eventually find out - why do i feel this bit of emptiness?

For old times sake. I wish we can be liberated from this misery that keeps hurting us every now & then. Most of the time I felt we can keep this connection, be in touch and carry on forever. I know it brings u some amt of joy as much as it does to me. But it is so difficult to do, because we cant stand the fact tt u & me will eventually be in someone else's arms, doing all the intimate things which couples do, which we used to do as a couple before. It sucks.

Been such a long time since i last posted pics!! Woohoo!!


Sometime in Mar. Wendi sitting there using lappie. Me.. bored ^0^


Sometime in April. Spinelli @ hereen.


Sometime in Apr @ True Spa. Great nails!!

My Room in July. Before renovation.

Goodbye old bed! I slept in this for 27yrs..

New Bed! New wall color! Woohoo!! ^0^

Metoo at the window.

Metoo lying in bed.

Metoo standing up.

Sometime in Sep. Post-breakup @ Orchard Central. Still looks good!

Slutty cat... Meow.

Late Afternoon sun at sentosa today. Coconut trees...

Many bhangra in long jeans & button shirts walking around...

Me. Great sun today. And i actually went alone all the way to sunny sentosa. New VS bigiini. Happy. ^0^

Rehi.
I have not written for so long, i feel everything is gonna spill out of my guts right now haha. Fact is i havent been so happy until today. Two full weeks of stress, neverending emails and requests, lotsa quarrels... today i finally felt i had a break. In retrospect, my weekend and a quick escape to Butter Factory did liven me up abit. Meeting friends & ppl outside the context of the office is a real blessing. Altho all good things come to an end, i'm really thankful for today. It's like fresh air.

New Job Assignment.
My announcement was yesterday, so i was running a few places and didnt have time for lunch. Really grateful for all the supportiveness & appreciation that my teams & bosses have given to me. Now i finally know what it feels like to leave an organization. I hope to keep in touch with everyone.

Next up, i'll be assisting a VP. Same company, different floor. Nearer to the Group President, and definitely higher stress. There's plenty of new things to learn, it's both scary & exciting. I'm looking forward.